veronika iglesias is an 18-year-old anthro canine trans girl of aspin breed. she has fluffy, unkempt hair at collar's length, wearing browline glasses to aid her vision. her appearance is overall just neglected. see, she's always been an edgy avoidant recluse. having extremely little experience with social situations, she's incredibly soft-spoken and awkward. she views herself as having zero worth, so repulsed of taking up space, just this heavy downer of a person, more of a realist? although too much of a doomer to actually address any of it. oh woe is me. she is far too concerned with how she is perceived and is unable to live authentically, essentially a doormat, surrounding herself with people who don't have her best interests at heart, regularly disrespecting her. she hangs around with radfems and terfs, right-wing chuds who keep her around for entertainment. to punish herself. she has insane anger issues, it'd get so intense that she'd wreck her room and punch walls until her knuckles bled, which, she hates in herself because it's testosterone-fueled malebrained rage (considering she's trans). and its not because she's angry all the time though it's just that she just takes it and takes it and then it blows up in this explosive, destructive fashion from being pent up for so long. very prone to physical violence, hitting herself, biting her arm, punchihg walls, etc. and this would then further affirm her TERF friend's views that tgirls are ultimately violent predatory incels. veronika accepts this narrative and internalizes them. the only reason she hangs with this radfem terf friend is because she puts cis girls on a pedestal and by extension the beliefs they hold regardless of what it is. veronika will always see herself as inferior to her radfem terf friend and will self-flagellate and suck up because in her eyes, she only views herself as just this disgusting male-bodied individual. to try and make up for "being born male" she punishes herself by making her experiences uncomfortable on purpose. and to be honest it is ingrained so badly that it is essentially happening subconsciously at this point. [she ran away not to escape her situation, but to raise the stakes and further stress her out, meant to further alienate herself from her family. its a larger punishment than just taking the heat usual.] she sees herself as the "agent" to her own deserved karma. this is 100% self sabotage digging herself into a pit of her own making to somehow make amends for being amab. she wouldnt even accept she/her pronouns. she will never allow herself to experience the privilege of comfort and safety. actually she has to make up for a lot of things. for one, she is filipino, but most would know her as vaguely ethnic or brown or maybe even assumed hispanic. she will never acknowledge her heritage in any meaningful capacity out of shame and disdain for herself. every label attached, in her eyes, should be burned by other people. she always aims to be considered one of the good ones, just the bare minimum of tolerance, and that at least would validate her. that being said, her living situation at the moment is pretty dire. she ran away from home after her parents discovered estradiol pills in her drawers, already having a shaky relationship with them after flunking out of senior high. she threw her parents off that she ran off to bakersfield but stayed in LA, she knows its only a matter of time and this is out of her own design to keep her on edge. she numbs herself through bombarding her mind with doomscrolling and content, as well as masturbation. exactly someone who can't tolerate her own inferiority. detritus of a person. she's very terminally online, having her own parasocial investments.
